Feeling absolutely horrible now... Just puked my guts out and the apples I ate for breakfast.. Throat is so sore after vomiting... Feeling ill and tried to ask dad for money to go see doc. He equivalently asked me to fuck off. WTF. Still say I'm useless, and that I'm sick because I don't go to bed early. What stupid logic is that? I'm am so pissed and hurt by his fucking words. As if I don't want to sleep early. I would if I hadn't that marketing project to do, and my tutorials and everything else. He doesn't know a fucking thing and yet he assumes he's all so clever and knows about everything. Fuck off.

Going off to school now.

Came across this while surfing the net:

10 ways to cheer up

10. Breathe - Breathing is normally of rational usefulness, but sensible breathing can assist in reducing stress and anxiety. Focusing on your breathing keeps your mindfulness on the current instance and is a common integral part of reflection and meditation, a evident stress reducer. Breathe deeply and leisurely, noticing respective breath you inhale and exhale.

9. Laugh - Exhilaration and laughter is the perfect medicine. Keep proximate a book of jokes or a gratifying comic strip cartoon. When you experience blueness, imbed yourself in the spirit and go for a stomach-aching absolute laugher. Strong laughter improves your immune system and helps you abide life's problems in contemplation.

8. Return to Nature - Go for a trek or stroll in a park, sit down by a spring, or stare at a billboard of your favorite topic or mountain scene. Reflecting on a gorgeous radical scene can raise your spirits.

7. Gratitude - Prepare a brisk list of three to five proceedings in your life for which you are beholden. Reflect on each item and recognize the absolute way it impacts your life.

6. Give of Yourself - Providing an uplifting advice or thoughtfulness to someone else also uplifts you. Call an senile relative or fellow. Tender a few minutes of your space to baby-sit or walk the dog for a busy colleague or neighbor. Helping others, moves your kernel and will benefit your spirits.

5. Exercise - A quick walk or some distinctive form of physical workout will benefit your mood. Weed the garden or trim the house. The physical exertion will help lift your penchant.

4. Daydream - Remember a great holiday or a wondrous family reunion. Reflect on a card or letter someone sent you that was affecting and showed they cared for you.

3. Use a Strength - We all have novel strengths, capabilities at which we are principally gifted. Devote one or more of your strengths in some seasoning activity.

2. Contribute Something You Care About - Contribute to a garden, a cordial house plant, a pet, or your car. When we conduce something we feed a loving, caring attention to it that is a form of bestowal. Tending is not a chore, it's a commendation.

1. Apologize - Guilt and lamentation can hang all round us like a maximum burden, bringing on mild depression sans our awareness of the cause. Bid up a candid apology for things you've broken down or said that hurt others. You'll feel the alleviation of your load of penitence even if you aren't able to personally relegate the apology. Bidding it up to the Nature is adequate.

To you...

http://www.spine-health.com/conditions/depression/depression-and-chronic-back-pain

This is the very last thing i wish to happen to you...

I might not fully understand or emphasize...

But... I don't want you to give up.

I want you to know that even though I may physically be beside you, you are with me.

Through thick and thin, I will never abandon you.

So.. for me... be strong...