Hmm. So I've met someone from an online dating website who seems rather interesting. God knows how much time I have wasted trying to figure out what to do and understanding the dynamics of dating and meeting a potential. It's been a long time since I've gotten interested in someone who may actually reciprocate, given how utterly dull most profiles on the websites are. However, my gut feelings are as mixed as her signals, and it isn't the best feeling in the world. At times, it feels like everything is suspended, silently waiting for an answer that may never come. It is the loss of power which disturbs me most. Yet I find it difficult not to think about her, not to find out what she has been doing. Perhaps I am already too invested and need to hold back. Or should I push forward till I have an answer?
Have I not paid enough attention to myself? Or is this something that can be learned to be managed only during situations such as these? It's tough to differentiate when you have not much experience to go on. Maybe I should just, I don't know, go around and experiment with different people. Even if I'm not the type to play around.
But really, what's wrong with keeping things simple?
Once again, it feels as though it's me against the world. Haha.
