I do not recall the last time I blogged about my sentiments. Those words, unlike memories, fade when they are released from the mind, much like the concept of a pensieve in the world of Harry Potter. It is March now, and I have just gotten back home from a shopping trip in Bugis and Orchard Road to buy birthday presents for Felice. I discovered a new stationery/scrapbooking store in Haji Lane called WhenIcreate + Zakka. It sells the cutest cat postcards I've encountered for a while now. I have also tried, for the first time, buttermilk latte. The taste is lingering in my memory, potent and strange while rendering me speechless.
Blogging about my day is the beginning. It functions to ease me into writing once again.
I have considered a fair number of things today - my career, my standing in society vis a vis my education, my lack of personal growth, and yet another likely failed attempt at procuring a partner.
It has been exactly 6 months since I left my previous employment in HR. I spent the first 3 months fallowing and rejuvenating myself, adjusting back to a life with little luxuries and understanding the importance of savings. Those months were precious to my recovery from a toxic work environment. The next 3 months, I've spent them mostly at a student care centre taking care of Primary 4 children in my class. There have been fun and stressful days with the children, but something has always felt lacking. Not in the amount of salary I receive, but in the lack of intellectual simulation. I feel my intelligence slipping, and that to me, is most dangerous of all. It is time to get back on my feet and rejoin the corporate rat race. With any luck, I may make new friends who share similar interests with me. The first challenge to get past is the sending out of resumes and interviews. What sort of company and industry would I like to work for? I do not believe I am suited for a life of HR. I like mingling with colleagues and exchanging ideas, but I love to have autonomy and guidance too. How should I proceed? Days of looking through job portals do nothing to excite me, and yet I am terribly apprehensive about bureaucracy in government related careers. How efficient and effective are the rigorous rounds of interviews? There are certain aspects which cannot be known until a field test is in place.
My health is a growing concern for me this year. I should be exercising. I should be eating healthily. I give myself far too many excuses and too little discipline. I suspect I have an addiction to food. I might even be prone to addictive behavior. I will not know unless I am evaluated, but how good are doctors nowadays? It is a fine balance between monthly expenditures, health and savings. Who am I kidding, health is definitely the most important right?
I should get out there and exercise. Damn.
I've met a girl recently, on online dating, yet again. She is not my type. She is way taller than me, and really into dogs and volunteerism. And yet, I think there is a good potential if we ever get into a relationship. Unfortunately, she doesn't seem very keen on it. I am kind of upset, but I do think I've gotten used to rejection.
If the previous girl I knew exposed me once again to the world of books, this woman made me question my opinion on volunteering, especially volunteerism involving animals.
