Where lies the heart?

You could see the eyes, the face, the body. But the heart can never be seen.

Where lies the heart?

Often, we remember people. We were told when young, to remember the face, the shapely contours unique to everyone. Lovers instinctively knew to memorize the body of their significant halves. The deaf read the motions, the blind listen - the handicapped feel.

Where lies the heart?

Let me tell you, looks matter not for no one is the same. Look not for the physical, for many years down the road, you'll forget how the person looks like. You'll forget the happy times you spent with the person, and the sad times shared as common damsels in distress.

The heart lies, just beside yours.

A person... remembers not the face, nor the memories... but the heart.

Because your brain can fail to recall them, but your heart would always know where someone dear to you is. You may never remember who the person was, never see that person again in your life...

But the heart.... their heart.... will forever lie right next to yours.

Up atop, high amidst the people
I stand, proud and tall beyond
Touching the skies

The wind whispers by
Blowing a storm, buffeting my wings to soar
Looking down

Fireworks are my company
Just tonight
Let a flag like me sing in chorus

Goodbye Miss 2007, Welcome, Mr 2008!

Three views here from myself..

A greater failure lies not in the inability to think, but of mistaken beliefs and thoughts.

Common perspectives make up common rules. But inevitably, they are all still perspectives, and perspectives are not enough for judgment.

One creation brings destruction. Actions spark off a re-action, because every force you use incurs an opposing force.

Let me walk down the path full of roses.
Where sunlight shines down upon me and life's full of love.
Even when the rain comes I'll keep my chin up high and face the storm.
`Cos there's nothing that's forever.

I saw you strolling on the opposite road, a face full of worry.
Gave you a wave and a simple 'hi there, ain't the weather great today?'
And the world just turns brighter minute by the minute.
Don't we just need someone to remind us of angels?

Let's make lemonade out of sourest lemons the universe throws at you.
Let's see the sliver lining out of the skies' darkest clouds.
Let's not think of 'if only' but 'what's next?'
`Cos the world's hard only when you see it that way~

~Dedicated to tong tong~

We part, and meet, and we part again.

This endless cycle makes me tire from you, from keeping in contact. But there's no choice.

During the rainy days, I mark a calendar, red for days you made me laugh and black for when you made my heart shatter.

Always, I had hoped for miracles; but you played me like a harp with your fake smiles and gestures.

And now, I'm at a loss of what to do.. Should I give up on you totally? Or are some of your smiles for real?

When I take a stroll in the softly pelting rain, I laugh and I cry, and the rain hides me away... I'm thinking of you and me, even now.

I'll wait and search for you, at the shelter, and the station, if only I could catch a glimpse of you.

Just like how the rain hides my tears away, I'll make sure yours will never fall. I'll stand by you, silently if need be, because your smile's worth more than anything to me.

Look behind whenever you are down, for there's always a silly me in the background holding chocolates to cheer you up, and roses to replace the ones you've lost.

But I'll still cry in the rain and the cycle repeats again and again...

A gentle smile bestowed upon me when we were on that sacred bridge. It felt as if the sun was generously shining its warm rays, making this individual feel so at ease.

In my dreams, there was this peaceful sensation, as if everything was fine when the sun took in you.

One more time, One more chance

A song from the movie, 5 cm per second. Credits to http://anrev.wordpress.com/

Romaji

Koreijou nani wo ushinaeba kokoro wa yurusareru no
Dore hodo no itami naraba mou ichido kimi ni aeru
One more time kisetsu yo utsurowanaide
One more time fuzake atta jikan yo

Kuichigau toki wa itsumo boku ga saki ni oreta ne
Wagamama na seikaku ga naosara itoshiku saseta
One more chance kioku ni ashi wo torarete
One more chance tsugi no basho wo erabenai

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Mukai no HOOMU rojiura no mado
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni
Negai ga moshimo kanau nara ima sugu kimi no moto e
Dekinai koto wa mou nanimo nai
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo

Sabishisa magirasu dake nara
Dare demo ii hazu na no ni
Hoshi ga ochisou na yoru dakara
Jibun wo itsuwarenai
One more time kisetsu yo utsurowanaide
One more time fuzake atta jikan yo

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Kousaten demo yume no naka demo
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni
Kiseki ga moshimo okoru nara ima sugu kimi ni misetai
Atarashii asa korekara no boku
Ienakatta suki to iu kotoba mo

Natsu no omoide ga mawaru fui ni kieta kodou

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Akegata no machi sakuragichou de
Konna toko ni kuru hazu mo nai no ni
Negai ga moshimo kanau nara ima sugu kimi no moto e
Dekinai koto wa mou nanimo nai
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no kakera wo
Tabisaki no mise shinbun no sumi
Konna toko ni aru hazu mo nai no ni
Kiseki ga moshimo okoru nara ima sugu kimi ni misetai
Atarashii asa kore kara no boku
Ienakatta suki to iu kotoba mo

Itsu demo sagashite shimau dokka ni kimi no egao wo
Kyuukou machi no fumikiri atari
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni
Inochi ga kurikaesu naraba nandomo kimi no moto e
Hoshii mono nado mou nanimo nai
Kimi no hoka ni taisetsu na mono nado

English

How much more do I have to lose, before my heart is forgiven?
How many more pains do I have to suffer, to meet you once again?
One more time, oh seasons, fade not
One more time, when we were messing around

Whenever we disagreed, I would always give in first
Your selfish nature made me love you even more
One more chance, the memories restrain my steps
One more chance, I cannot choose my next destination

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight

If I just wanted to avoid loneliness, anybody would have been enough.
Because the night looks like the stars will fall, I cannot lie to myself.
One more time, oh seasons, fade not.
One more time, when we were messing around

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
At a street crossing, in the midst of dreams
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words I never said: “I love you.”

The memories of summer are revolving
The throbbing which suddenly disappeared

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
At dawn on the streets, at Sakuragi-cho
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight

I’m always searching, for fragments of you to appear somewhere
At a traveller’s store, in the corner of newspaper,
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words I never said: “I love you.”

I always end up looking for your smile, to appear somewhere
At the railroad crossing, waiting for the express to pass
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If our lives could be repeated, I would be at your side every time
I would want nothing else
Besides you, nothing else matters

The soft tones of a piano plays in the background, sorrowful melodies its partner for the night. An imaginary violin resonates in my ears, a familiar shadow drawing the fragile strings of the instrument.

Waitresses glide along on pointed heels and ironed uniforms, silently serving the faceless scepters. The pale lighting appears bright against the inner void, as I flit between this dimension and the next. Visuals exist behind my eyes, and in the blank mind; I took in everything and nothing simultaneously.

When one can't escape from a self-built maze, what can one do?

I see you, and yet I don't.

I search and I search, but I could never find you.

I'll wait and wait, until the sun sets and the night comes.

I'll wait till the earth stops revolving and the stars burn out.

I'll wait for you, for your smile and I'll do anything to keep it on your face.

You.

A rose that doesn't wither when love exists.

Fingers wrap snugly around the familiar contours, shaping them from memory. Every curve, scratch and texture a vivid memory fleeting through the recesses of the mind. The rough stone brings little comfort to the touch, and warmth from my hand travels away and back to me from rock to human.

Stroking it with care, the sandy exterior reminds me of a time where we used to frequent beaches. With the world shut out of my sight, I could recall us frolicking freely there when we were young.

Like all fairytales, I believed us to live 'happily ever after'; but reality is reality, and it hurts.

Staring at the horizon in the far-off distance, a bouquet of lilies fell from my embrace and into the raging sea. The sea which you had loved so much...

Happy birthday...

When you close your eyes, who do you see?

Racing down the streets, you left nothing but the scent of you in a gust of wind. I stared at your disappearing profile from a distance, perched on one of the many windows amongst a whole ocean.

My gaze lifted skywards, towards the dark curtain decorated with blinking stars. I had a million wishes, but they didn't weigh more than you. Even a meteor shower wouldn't grant me you, or take my words back...

A drop of tear slid down my cheek.

If only, time could be reversed. Perhaps then, things would have been very different.

A promise that was broken... are promises made to be broken?

A clueless me lies alone, silence as my companion.

What's this wrenching sensation within me? This..... strange pang....

This ache...

It's getting chiller.... like I'm trapped by hurricanes of snow without your presence.

Forgive me..... let summer embrace me.... please....

Sometimes, revealing more about yourself is a better facade in concealing your most private away from prying eyes..

*insert disclaimer*

I stand, a parch dry throat and loneliness as my company. The wind's fury slashes across my exposed skin like a thousand knives, striking at the most vulnerable. Every step an agony, I made my way through the desert sand.

Each tumble I took sank me deeper into the soft sand. A gradually weary arm rose to grasp the sky, begging for rain that was never granted. How I wanted to just lay on the gentle carpet and let heavens take me; but I couldn't.

Not while my oasis laid just beyond my reach, just beyond my outstretched fingers.

Again and again, I embraced the thought, hoping and hoping that one day, my oasis wouldn't be just another mirage created from desperation.

It lies just beyond my fingers... just right ahead....

From Anthony and Cleopatra,

Shall I abide in this dull world, which in thy absence is no better than a sty?

Love nourishes everyone regardless of gender, age or personality or anything else. It's a fair game of trust and reaction, with0ut any sides becoming biased towards anyone else. Love is a vector, something which needs to be defined by magnitude and direction. But because there are always positive and negative vectors, love will meet obstacles. Sometimes, when the yin and yang of love are not balanced, we tend to lose ourselves in the battle. However, love is never balanced.

Everything just boils down to a fact. Being in love means that we will lose something. However, we will also gain something in return for what we\ve lost. There is one very important factor though, a factor which must be present for love to flourish and be itself. Just one little condition that every heart must obey; without this rule, it's only a lose-lose game.

Love must be returned.

Sometimes, when we search and search for the one true love, we never once notice that it has always been beside us. It's like we're on a different plane of existence, looking down at the lesser and up at the superior; never our left or right, where our equals stand.

Other times, we know that love is just a hair's breath away, but we couldn't bridge that gap because we're afraid... so very fear-stricken of our own touch to that fragile flower named love... that the careless, tainted hands would make it wither away in shame.

And lying latent, is that one burgundy rose that has yet to blossom.

My beloved rose

A lonesome leaf flutters in the wind.....