February 20, 2010

The clouds have cleared =) Just a little.

February 19, 2010

I wonder... why this sense of uncertainty pervades me... It's like a dark cloud, blocking my ray of light such that I am lost in the cold, harsh world. I step into murky waters, not knowing what would happen next, blind to any potholes. I seek little comfort in the fact that time's running out, that I have to clear my checkpoints or perish, stuck in the weird world that had suddenly enveloped me. It does not help, for me mind to be as clear as swampwater, or me heart as peaceful as high seas. Turbulence.

And I wonder... how many people would read this? perhaps none.
I long for sweet words and comforting hugs.. n I wonder she could sense it..
but I have no intention on keeping my hopes up only to have them dashed.

February 15, 2010

Days that drip red,
like passionate roses in the sun
like the warmth of a person
like blood-filled tears
like heartache
like relevation
An article I read on Yahoo news today about third-hand smoke.

WASHINGTON (AFP) - – You know smoking is bad for you. You know inhaling someone else's smoke is bad for you. Now a US study says third-hand smoke -- tobacco residue clinging to surfaces -- is also bad for you.

When a cigarette burns, nicotine is released in the form of a vapor that collects and condenses on indoor surfaces such as walls, carpeting, drapes and furniture, where it can linger for months, said the study, which was published in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences (PNAS).

"Our study shows that when this residual nicotine reacts with ambient nitrous acid it forms carcinogenic tobacco-specific nitrosamines, or TSNAs," said Hugo Destaillats, a corresponding author of the study.

"TSNAs are among the most broadly acting and potent carcinogens present in unburned tobacco and tobacco smoke," he said.

The most likely human exposure to TSNAs is through either inhalation of dust or the contact of skin with carpet or clothes -- making third-hand smoke particularly dangerous to infants and toddlers.

Opening a window or turning on a fan to air out a room while a cigarette burns does not eliminate the hazard of third-hand smoke. Smoking outdoors doesn't help much either.

"Smoking outside is better than smoking indoors but nicotine residues will stick to a smoker's skin and clothing," said Lara Gundel, a co-author of the study.

"Those residues follow a smoker back inside and get spread everywhere. The biggest risk is to young children," she said.

"Dermal uptake of the nicotine through a child's skin is likely to occur when the smoker returns and if nitrous acid is in the air, which it usually is, then TSNAs will be formed."

Substantial levels of TSNAs were also found in the truck of a heavy smoker, the study says, adding that most vehicle engines emit some nitrous acid that can infiltrate the passenger compartment of a vehicle.

Researchers from the Lawrence Berkeley National Laboratory led the study, which they say is the first to quantify the reactions of third-hand smoke with nitrous acid.

February 14, 2010

"And please," says Roger, "when you need to head for the ladies or the gents, just leave the room quietly and go. I have no need to know."

February 13, 2010

Happy CNY people~ although it's still abt half an hr away.

I shall try my best to enjoy this CNY despite the deadlines for various important assignments creeping up on me... and more importantly, the lack of someone I hold dear with me.

Te echo de menos.

Te amo, mi querido.

Te beso en mi corazón.