Came home today to a surprise after a sleepover last night, and now the world seems to be pressing down on me.

NTU: Offered a place in Econs/going for an NIE interview soon
NUS: so far no news yet

I've been given a premonition for one of the toughest choices I've made in my life so far... a decision between money, future and interest. Gosh. Why can't the world function on barter trading? There's nothing I hate more than money issues but yet it is one that surrounds the world.

The super long holidays are slowly counting in anguished ticking of the clock... no more free days where I can do what I want to without much considerations... Back to those mechanical days of learning? Where is the meaning in studying.. and in life? I almost feel like I'm in some sort of crisis even though I do not know what it is.

Perhaps it's the knowledge that I'm going to have to face changes and meet new people that made me feel this way. It's an unavoidable process, I guess... Life goes on, nothing is really set in stone... people change, circumstances change... good old times are lost, new experiences set in... and at the end of the day nothing's really left but countless memories...

Growing up.... growing up... like plants...

Ok, maybe I've been playing too much plant tycoon. =X

I sat and played on a seesaw today, it was so fun and nostalgic~ Whee~ Happy happy.

Sometimes, couples do silly things together, laughing it off.
Sometimes, couples do silly things to each other, and leave a path of tears.
Sometimes, I do silly things.
Sometimes, you do silly things.
If it's inevitable, so be it~
Because at the end of the day, nothing's gonna matter except you.

I love you.

月半小夜曲

仍然倚在失眠夜望天边星宿
仍然听见小提琴如泣似诉再挑逗
为何只剩一弯月留在我的天空
这晚以后音讯隔绝

人如天上的明月是不可拥有
情如曲过只遗留无可挽救再分别
为何只是失望填密我的空虚
这晚夜没有吻别

仍在说永久想不到是借口
从未意会要分手

但我的心每分每刻仍然被她占有
她似这月儿仍然是不开口
提琴独奏独奏着明月半倚深秋
我的牵挂我的渴望 直至以后

The lonely melody of the violin pulls at heartstrings as I think about someone.

Today was the release of A levels' results in school.

Got a shock when I received my result slip because of a scary nightmare I had a couple of days ago.

B for Econs and GP, D for Chem and Bio, E for Maths - this was in my dream. It worried me to no end.

But today, I find it difficult to believe that I scored a C for Maths despite the abysmal answers I'd given, and B for everything else. I'm a lil disappointed for Econs though, since it was the subject I worked the hardest for. I figured that it was probably my case study that screwed me up or smth...

And now, the trouble and headache of deciding what courses and what uni I should apply to.

Thinking, thinking.

How do I know what I really want?